I am getting married tomorrow…

It has been a while since I was here last.  This blog used to be a place where I could pour out my passions, frustrations, and just talk about life as it came. I have gotten so caught up in… well… life, that I haven’t had time to sit down and write.  But here I am, pounding away on my keyboard this fine morning.  The day before my wedding. I have so much to do today. I have so much I should be doing right now.  But here I am, sitting on my couch writing this blog.

I feel like I have been going 100 mph nonstop for about a month now and I just need to take this time to stop for a moment and ponder where I am at.  I am getting married tomorrow.  It sounds so weird saying that.  It feels surreal. Like I am in a dream that is so vivid it feels real, but still on the other side of reality.  This is crazy.

My feelings about getting married? Excited, tired, scared, happy, sad, overjoyed, overwhelmed, ecstatic, freaked out.  My emotions are a plethora of extremes that at this moment I don’t put much value on.

I love Joel with all of my heart.  I know that we are called to be together. I know that in the midst of God’s amazing plan for my life, right smack dab in the middle, there is Joel. He is there to love me, encourage me, and partner with me to fulfill the destiny God has given to me. I also know that I am the same for him.  In this sense, there is no doubt in my mind that I am supposed to walk down that aisle tomorrow and say ‘I do’ to the most amazing man in the world.

As a little girl you always dream of the day when you will get married.  With every new fad that comes along, your idea of it changes, but the overall feeling never does.  This hoping for, and dreaming of, one day jumps out of the land of make believe and fairy tales, playing dress up and imaginary, and jumps right into your world as a young woman. It catches you off guard really. But it is oh so wonderful.

I am getting married tomorrow. I have looked forward to this day my whole life.  This process has taught me many lessons. I have cried, I have laughed, I have cried some more, I have humbled myself, I have been prideful, I have made good decisions and bad decisions. Nonetheless I am still getting married tomorrow to my night in shining armor. The one who sweeps me off my feet, takes my breath away, and makes me weak in the knees.  Oh happy day.

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