My night with the Master…

My Lord humbles me

He brings me to a low place where the only place I can go is to the Master’s feet

my head is heavy on His chest and I can feel His heart beat

He speaks to me and tells me I am loved

my gaze rests on His doves eyes and I find myself weeping

He brushes my face with His fingers yet this embrace is almost too overwhelming

Once again I find myself humbled before my God

I pour out my insecure love on Him the only way I know how

my lips are raw but His feet are so tender

He smells like rain as it cleanses the earth

He draws me to His side and calls me into His arms

I feel a longing I’ve denied so many times before

but apart from Him I can do nothing

I abide in Him and He in me

My tears stain His royal robes but He pays no attention and I know I am loved

I am amazed by the light that shines upon me

exposing the dross that I have clothed myself in

at the time I thought I was so beautiful

I am not holy

I am not righteous

I am not pure

I only know I am loved

I can’t understand why the Master would call me to His marriage bed

I am so filthy and I cannot hide it

As I weep I sink deeper into His arms

I feel wetness on my shoulder only to find the tears of my master gently falling over me

He weeps as I weep and our cries become one

I ache to the core and cry out with all of my soul

yet the Master’s embrace only tightens

I can’t handle it but He won’t let go

He has felt this pain before

His tears sting as they soak into my skin and I realize I am naked

“Who told you you were naked?” are the only words my Master speaks

The pain is overwhelming and I want to go back to just kissing His feet

but the Master only holds me closer

my knees go weak my voice is gone I feel darkness surrounding and my vision is blurred

I have no strength left all I have is Him now

The darkness fades and His eyes are heavy with tears

He wipes my last tear from my cheek and kisses my head softly

my Master has kept me through the night and mercies shine through the morning sun

and I feel I am loved